a new year

I HATE TEENAGERS WTF

2009-05-29T23:21:42Z

ughh im so angry. today sucks already then on the way home some asshole teenagers are riding my ass all the way down my street even tho there are a million people walking their dogs and im already going 5 over the speed limit! so they tried to pass me once then realized there was a person walking there and slammed on their brakes. then i turned on my blinker and into my driveway and they honked at me! as if this wasnt enough they drove down the street turned around and watched me get out of my car (flipping me off) then were like "hey hows it going" "whats up" GRRRRR I HATE TEENAGERS THEYRE SO STUPID. at least the ones in that car. idiots.

so this is me being angry.
BUT andy got me 2 dozen roses! they were sitting here waiting for me how cute :)
and everyone at work =bitches.
some evil lady took down my name because the medication her dr. wrote for is out of stock and she refuses to let the dr. change it to something else and she also refuses to drive anywhere else to get it even if they have it. MY PERSONAL FAULT I GUESS. so shes calling corporate on me. nice.

ANDDD i just looked at my statement and theres a 60 dollar ATM withdrawl from today that i definitely did not do :( im depressed. so i have to go to the stupid bank tomorrow. /cry

hope everyone elses lives are better than mine for the day

2006fagg @ 2009-04-10T21:29:00

2009-04-11T02:30:03Z

i wish i was a little bit taller, i wish i was a baller..

destination unkown

2009-03-24T17:18:23Z

Life is so strange when you don't know
How can you tell where you're going to
You can't be sure of any situation
Something could change and then you won't know

You ask yourself
Where do we go from here
It seems so all too near
Just as far beyond as I can see
I still don't know what this all means to me

So you tell yourself
I have nowhere to go
I don't know what to do
And I don't even know the time of day
I guess it doesn't matter any way

Life is so strange
Destination unknown
When you don't know
Your destination
Something could change
It's unkown
And then you won't know
Destination unknown

You ask yourself
When will my time come
Has it all been said and done
I know I'll leave when its my time to go
'Til then I'll carry on with what I know

Life is so strange
Destination unknown
When you don't know
Your destination
Something could change
It's unkown
And then you won't know
Destination unknown

2006fagg @ 2009-03-11T22:22:00

2009-03-12T03:23:04Z

these quizzes are retarded and they're not even distracting me

weird

2009-03-12T02:50:40Z

it's so strange how everyone interprets something differently.

2006fagg @ 2009-03-11T01:12:00

2009-03-11T06:12:26Z

i feel like im going to throw up.
i havenet been this...
in forever

lame

2009-03-10T16:25:15Z

WEll, back to how much i hate girls. it's so annoying being a girl. i feel that i make such a big deal out of everything and i wish my brain would just shut off. i think too much and create these crazy situations. no wonder im scared of assasins..lol. i'm so retarded. for real.

i had a really nice weekend, i hope next weekend is fun too. 3 day weekend, hooray.
also last night went out with steph and shauna, that was also fun. and needed. poor steph :/ i took a break from drinking, i feel like im starting up again but at the same time i hate how many calories alcohol contains.
AND im pissed that i bought this swimsuit that's really cute and i thought it would make it look like i have boobs but it totally didnt work :( it's sad. at least i thought it would make them look bigger or something. whatever tho. i suppose i'll get over it.

ummm. i can't wait for the weather. it already feels like spring to me. i dont care that the weather is crappy. it's still warmer, i don't feel freezing anymore. and i need to go on some nice long walks with certain people or animals. :)
i love outside!!!

i get payed tomorrow, another good thing. so i guess there's not that much of a reason for being depressed...or disappointed.
i need to get my head on straight tho.

I AM PLANNING ANOTHER CAMPING TRIP. lol i hope someone comes with. jackie? i think it should be a hiking trip or something. maybe isle royale?

distressed

2009-03-10T01:26:50Z

i hate brains.
i need to control myself

NEW COMPUTER

2009-03-06T03:17:29Z

yay! I can't believe i bought it. I'm so bad at buying things. But it's here!
so I think maybe I will actually start using this stuff....but I'm not gonna guarantee that because i suck at communication.
it's been a pretty bad week but hopefully the weekend will be fun.
my new phone came today...lame. since mine was "discontinued" GRR
shoulda switched to verizon.

NONSENSE

2009-02-12T06:49:53Z

i just want to be able to sleep. once!
staying up is so boring and/or scary sometimes.

i love music. and carla. and many other things.

lacking

2009-02-03T06:46:42Z

i have a very hard time reading peoples stuff that is all written in poetry/songs/riddles. lol i suck at life. i think everyday that i lose billions of brain cells. i dont even know how it's happening. it makes me scared. but everything makes me scared, so its all gravy. and i love you justin, so im sorry if i dont understand your entries. i think most of my problem is that i stay up too late at night. but there is not much to be done about it.

so im really jealous of all these people that are doing things. i want to do cool things. as usual. andy and i took scout for a walk the other day that always makes me happy. and we are going to spend valentines day at the zoo w/hot chocolate and peppermint schnapps :) yay. and a camera, and grill out. xoxoxoxox.

i love being outside. it is the purpose of living. besides getting to 80. JK

i cannot believe i am going to be 22 next friday. its so old.

sweetness

2009-01-07T12:08:33Z

well, i managed to copy my other journal's style onto here. even tho it still isnt the same as i remember it...cause love_biotch and katherine34rrr both look the same now..hmmm idk i had too many jounrals anyway. they are really funny tho. all that anonymous comment nonsense. i kind of enjoy reading it. WELL since its 6 am i guess its time for bed. thanks to everyone who has been a truly amazing friend in my life. i'm trying to improve! PEACE AND LOVE.

ahahha bitches and heartbreakers. carla u need to write in here. so i can keep up on your life. I LOVE YOU!!!!!!! forever.

-kath

ps: i kno its lame since its the new year but i wanna rekindle friendships! why is it so hard!!!!! i miss everyone.

come on baby, lets get away!

2009-01-07T11:33:03Z

this green will look stupid on my jounral now that its all BLUE. it probly wont even show up, i think i usually use colors...hmm. anyway i am overtired as usual. another 5:30 am night!!! yayyy thats okay. i am a night owl. i hate the darkness. that doesnt' really make sense. i picked up some shifts so i can make MONEY. im super duper excited. and andys going to stevens point this weekend :(
But im going to wizard quest w/other andy and maybe shauna will come! that would be cool. as long as its cheap. i have been spending too much money. but im getting a new swimsuit yay. too bad i suck at diet/exercise. today i did so good then i had to ruin it at 11:20 pm just to eat taco bell when i wasn't even hungry!! what was i thinking! anyway darla wont sleep w/me so im lonely. i talked to carla tonight, that was really nice. i miss her. and i have to work with the crazy hat lady again on friday. i want to call in, but i need the hours. if she says soemthing retarded i am just going to walk out i decided. this lady should not be a pharmacist anyway.

OH and since i got steph hired we each get thes crazy bonuses im so excited! 3 separate payments of 250 dollars each!! as long as she gets enough hours. i hope she can. but she has like 10 jobs and school, so we'll see. i miss dave at work :(

ummmmm i want to go up north and do something exciting. i think i want to go ice fishing.

i gotta go to the y again today, and i should walk scout. i feel like i dont give him enough attention anymore even tho i know he is spoiled.
i think steph is gonna come over to play scrabble tomorrow that will be good.
so i found out almost everyone i work with plays wow....this is so hilarious!
and i hate making new friends but i did anyway and i love it for some reason. coolness.
k peace out!

okay i still don't get this anymore

2008-11-11T19:13:11Z

okay, i don't undertstand the way they set up the customization for these jounrals anymore. maybe someday i will figure it out. but for now, i hate it. Umm nothing relaly that exciting has happened, besides we adopted a kitten! her name is Darla ( she came with that name ) and she's all black. She's pretty cute. Otherwise i have actually been reading a lot, which makes me feel more like myself. I haven't felt like I am the same person lately. I wish i was tho. Anyway, reading has been nice. I joined the YMCA but lately I have sucked at showing up. I'll have to change that since I'm paying for it. It's just been the last week that i really didn't go. But still, i need to get in a habit. I lack motivation and energy, and brain cells i think. im not sure what happened to me. but im trying to change that. for example, im gonna go clean my room and organize my paperwork....somethign i would definitely NOT do normally. Congratulations to Liz on her new baby!!! <3
ps: if you dont know, i play world of warcraft now. HAHAHHA. never thought that would happen. and the lich king comes out in 2 days! hooray.

P.S.

2008-09-23T03:07:08Z

ewwwwwwwwww when did my journal get so ugly!?! and blue???? and i don't remember how to do any of it to make it cool. i hate it.

2006fagg @ 2008-09-22T22:03:00

2008-09-23T03:05:05Z

WHEN will it change?

Summertime and the livings easy???

2008-08-06T03:23:38Z

WARNING: THIS ENTRY CONSISTS MOSTLY OF COMPLAINING. just so you know before you decide to waste time reading it.

So I can never drive my car again. It is officially dead. I payed rent today and have no money and I still have to pay school bills that I never have enough money for....what the hell. This is so lame. Unfortunately I am moving home ASAP. I feel like I'm working all the time, it doesn't make sense. Well work turned into Hell, maybe that's part of it. Plus I'm bad at cleaning and doing laundry. And I'm always tired and I never work out. Sorry if you're reading this it's more for myself to just complain and vent to myself. I'm mostly just depressed that I don't think i will ever be rich enough to just buy a ton of land and live in the middle of nowhere with no PEOPLE around. And learn how to garden and plant trees and recycle. and read books. I kinda feel stupid writing this. But also depressed. I want to be in high school. And go out with carla every single night and have a best friend and do gymnastics. and not have a job. or just have a job and be really good at saving money. like i was. and then go to europe. everyone seems to be travelling the world, did you notice that??? Hopefully I'll make up for this entry with my next one. We'll see what kind of mood im in.

Buffalo Bill

2008-08-05T01:21:02Z

Idk why i am so obsessed with camping but i really need to go. i want to plan a trip for fall i am just such a bad planner. i hope it happens. in other news, my car is officially dead. and i have zero dollars saved up to buy a new one. soooooo BICYCLE time!!! yaya. and i have to move back home. so i can save up. and be in "riding" distance to work. oh well what r u gonna do. get money money money. sorry im drinking whiskey currently. how loser-ish. but yeah back to camping. lets go.

oh wait!! so i saw JOURNEY TO THE CENTER OF THE EARTH. how cool. i mean, it really wasn't the best movie i've ever seen but it was pretty cool. i think i loved it.

ok ok im posting like 5 times in one day

2008-07-25T06:38:08Z

ohhhhh camping!

[08 Sep 2005|01:23am]

crazy naked times number 2! [into the future]

huge jugs!

yes!!

fire all the time

bb guns

fireworks

grilled cheese

sounds like the best time of my life

chopping wood me you by the lake, under the pale moon

hahhahaa.

i caress your fairy body down to the soft, wet grass

i like the setting. hahahahhahahahhahaha

youre awesome

shh

i quiet your trembling breath with a mighty kiss

my lips are strong but gentle. you lips taste sweet and of carmex

haha i love this story keep going

our hands move at a furious pace, trying to let loose the soft flesh underneath

my shirt easily slides over hard abs and pecks hidden within

when trying the same with you, the shirt catches on you nose, trapping you inside

i kiss you gently with a smile on my face

when i finally let you free, it is like seeing art in a new light

i brush you hair behind your ears and hold you by you neck, kissing you deeply, passionately

your hand caresses my strong chest

i press my palm into the small of your back, pulling you close like only a true love would

the button of your pants gives me no trouble as i slowly loosen the zipper

shall i go on?

"a night in the woods"

....well, i left out the part about jason and joe asking us what the hell is going on

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so basically i just had to post this. i was reading both of my old journals and they're mostly hilarious. i seemed to be much more outgoing at one point in time. adn where are all thse people that used to hang out all night until 4 AM with me?? i feel so lazy now. rounding 2 o'clock tho. but yeah. i just had to post this story mostly. GOODNIGHT

Happiness

2008-07-25T05:39:19Z

Well i can't really remember how to do cool things on here but im sooooooooo happy that people use it!! i have to figure out how to change my e-mail tho cause i didnt even realize anyone wrote something. so im slightly overtired and this will probably be pretty random but thats mostly expected when i write or speak it never seems to fit together really well. BUT soo life is alright. nothing very exciting. i feel like i want to PARTY! hahahahha. work is very busy but getting better, the new ppl i work with are cool and fun. after so long i am friends w/carla again which i think is a good thing. im having such a burst of energy!! i must be the only person who can never sleep at night. two of my cousins got married this summer which is awesome AND the second wedding was a BASEBALL wedding and they served nachos and soft pretzels and hot dogs and had a NACHO CHEESE FOUNTAIN. have you ever heard of it?? hwo cool. and we all wore baseball clothse even t ho our table was brewers and the whole reception was cubs. hahah. well with the occasional white sox fan. um im 21 woo-hoo. well not really cause i never go out. but maybe one day when im rich i will and it will be really fun!! this entry is gay. speaking of that i saw some gay guys ina parking lot last night having an embrace. I'm really grateful for all my friends even if its been a long time. there are too many people who i have cried in front of and have helped me so much. and i love them. being a grown up sucks. ummmmm thats all. i have to get better at this soon. goodnight! goodmorning!

blurt.

2008-05-22T16:02:04Z

I feel like such a waste of space today. It's my day off what have i done? Andy and I were fighting this morning but i do feel slightly better now. I'm only depressed about the Earth. so why am i not outside? also i am really starting to miss people. just visiting random myspace pages, looking through pictures...i don't know why i felt like i needed to separate myself from everyone so much. The only people i let near me were andy and jackie. not even carla. and i grew farther apart from liz. i know this happens anyway as we get older. but the fact that it was my own fault. im going back to school in the fall which i think should help. where is my motivation?? most of the reason i stopped seeing people is because everyone wants to partypartyparty.....i went a little too crazy with that, but i should still be able to get excited and want to do stuff sometimes. its as if i have no energy. i know i need to exercise. that will help. if you want change how do you make it happen!!! if anyone is interested in hanging out, becoming pen-pals, emailing...i am interested. i know i hate meeting people..but i dont want to lose everyone that i do know. and i have to re-meet them anyway.

:)

2007-01-08T08:07:26Z

When we hear that song, we will dance
When we’re with all our friends, we will drink and laugh
When we’re driving in our cars, we will sing
If you’re lost and you look, you will find me
But what I couldn’t do is figure out how you
You jumped into my heart, now I couldn’t start
To think of life without you, my world would stop
And fall down again, all black and blue again
I want to know everything about you
What makes you feel alive?
And I want to know everything that you do
Let’s drive through the night
When you show me your world, I just smiled
And then I sit with you now, I can remember
That when we forget about everything that hurts us
How nothing in the world seems to be
‘Cause nothing can hurt us
Like Wilson Bentley found on black velvet
A beauty so strange, something he didn’t expect
It’s a unique find that only some people get
And you are mine
‘Cause I want to know everything about you
What makes you feel alive?
And I want to know everything that you do
So let’s drive through the night
Put your hands on my heart
Spray paint verses on a cold blue wall
Write our names in the burning sand
Watch as snowflakes melt inside our hands
‘Cause I want to know everything about you
What makes you feel alive?
And I want to know everything that you do
So let’s drive through the night

2006fagg @ 2006-11-02T14:53:00

2006-11-02T20:53:43Z

i woke up this morning
i found that i had
a smile on my face
i asked myself whats this for
and i remembered you
and i thought of you

reality
you barely know me
i want to know you
i want to sit beside you
and talk about anything
i wanna be with you
everyday with you
but that
that wont happen
that probly wont happen
no way
no way

but then i recall last nights drama
i got frustrated
than i went back to sleep
my dreams were of you
and your pretty face
when i got up
i wanted to get out of bed
and go to your place

but
you barely know me
i want to know you
i want to sit beside you
and talk about anything
i wanna be with you
everyday with you
but that
that wont happen
that probly wont happen
no way
that'll be the day

but can i just say
i think youre wonderful, wonderful
yeah
but can i just say
i think youre wonderful..wonderful

but you barely know me
i want to know you
i want to sit beside you
and talk about anything

but that
that wont happen
that probly wont happen
no way
that'll be the day

because you barely know me
and i want to know you
i want to sit beside you
and talk about anything
i want to be with you
everyday with you
but that
that wont happen
that probly wont happen
no way
that'll be the day
no way

2006fagg @ 2006-10-12T05:42:00

2006-10-12T10:42:49Z

ohhhhhhhhhhhh LIFE.

2006fagg @ 2006-10-10T03:33:00

2006-10-10T08:33:47Z